Warm and welcoming brown eyes, smile that makes me smile.
Laughter you bring to me, life you brought back my heart
Its not love
Its just happiness,pure and simple joy to be alive and to
know I can trust again.
Thank you for that.........

Current Location: Work
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: His music

All I have to say today is happy is good, moving on is amazing and feeling free of all that once held you back is liberating!!!!!!! I wish you all the same :)

Current Location: work
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: music and talking

In 1965 (the year you were born)

Lyndon B. Johnson is president of the US Secretary of Defense Robert McNamara calls for a nationwide network of bomb shelters Former leader of the Black Muslims, Malcolm X, is shot and killed in New York City To protest voting rights discrimination, civil rights demonstrators begin a march for Selma to Montgomery with federal troop protection The first commercial satellite, Early Bird, is launched into space by Nasa to transmit telephone and television signals Voting Rights Act is signed into law Riots by young blacks in the Watts area of Los Angeles begin, causing $200 million in damage Hurricane Betsy claims 75 lives in southern Florida and Louisiana United States President Lyndon Johnson proclaims his "Great Society" during his State of the Union address Dr. Dre, Sarah Jessica Parker, Robert Downey Jr., Shania Twain, Moby, and Ben Stiller are born Los Angeles Dodgers win the World Series Green Bay Packers win the NFL championship Montreal Canadiens win the Stanley Cup The Sound of Music, starring Julie Andrews, is the top grossing film Dune by Frank Herbert is published The Beatles' Rubber Soul is released "Satisfaction" by Rolling Stones is a top hit The Beatles appear on The Ed Sullivan Show, performing songs from their new album Help! Sony introduces the Betamax, a home video tape recorder Nearly all of NBC's programs are now broadcast in color I Dream of Jeannie premieres

Current Location: Work
Current Music: maggie driving me insane

Be careful with your heart; guard it well

Be careful with your heart guard it well; for if you open it to anyone they will surely rip it to shreds.

Be careful with you heart guard it well;for people lie and say what you want to hear to get into your soul

Be careful with your heart guard it well; for letting anyone in will only cause you pain

Be careful with your heart guard it well; for no one can be trusted

Be careful with your heart guard it well; for if you guard it well no one will ever break it again

Be careful with your heart guard it well.............

Current Location: work
Current Mood: determined
Current Music: fan running

Current Location: Work
Current Mood: content
Current Music: key boards typing away

Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those wordsa it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it so hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late

Current Location: work
Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: Teddy Geiger

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
But clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh
Anymore (anymore)

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer (a murderer)

Current Location: work
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: this song

Feeling oddly happy today, the weekend was great and full of surprises! It wasn't perfect or even wonderful really but it had its moments. I guess this feeling is content??? And if only everything else would fall into place then maybe things are starting to look up.... plus I smell good :)

Current Location: Work
Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: People talking.... to loudly if you ask me

Trying to work today however its hard when you have children who have not the first clue of what being me is like. Im tired of all of it, if everyone thinks Im so horrible, try it alone, try to see what is like to be there for all and get nothing in return, not even a thank you. Try to pay all the bills take care of a house and be there for everyone with no one EVER there for you. Try to be a listener to give advice to put a smile on your face even when you are sad and heartbroken but no time for you to be because your children need you and you do everything for them without any thanks. Try being invisible in your house... try it and then tell me how horrible I am... walk in my shoes before you ever think of telling me Im a bitch... try it.

Current Mood: pissed off

Hello to the pain -
I am so good at hiding how I feel, hell some might even call me an expert at it. Last night however my would mind wouldn't allow it. It flooded my dreams with reminders and feelings I keep trying to bury. I cried im my dreams, something I dont do often not for this, or in front of anyone. I keept waking up with the same feeling, a feeling of great pain and sorrow. It hurts, it hurts more than I am willing to admit and less willing to feel. I keep telling myself it shouldnt, how stupid I'm being , how it shouldnt matter or affect me so much. My head can't wrap itself around it. The biggest feeling is how I'm way to old to feel this way. How silly it must seem to some. How after a certain age you should be able to turn it off, keep the feelings from happening, that way it wont hurt so much. Maybe is because no matter how old you are the hurt feels the same; your chest feels full of pain and heavy when the tought crosses your mind. Your eyes still tear up and no matter how hard you try not to you cry like a teenager you still care. I wonder if he even knows how much I hurt, and how much I still care despite the hurt

Current Location: Work
Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: 3Doors Down